Cognitive dissonance. That is what my mind is going through.

Senioritis

I have a major case of Senioritis.  All I do is sleep and eat.  Avoid writing my thesis.  Ditch Edu 173.  Go to the mall.  Avoid writing my plasma lab.  Life really sucks at the moment.  What happened to my motivation?  I have never been this lazy before! Even senior year of high school was not this unproductive.  Honestly, these days I feel like a robot.  I have a to-do list that needs to be accomplished but not conation (edu 173 is good for something) behind it.  I sometimes have the volition but I feel like the computer-model of the mind.  I use cognition but it is not affected by motivation or volition.  I'm a walking robot with no emotions.  It's almost as if I am numb from the world.  I can't feel my surroundings anymore.  I am seriously not trying to sound emo or dark or sad.  I just feel cut off.  Like I have no connection to the world.  Almost like I'm an outsider watching the world go by.  I don't know why.

Confuzzled

Just a moment ago, I was going to switch to XANGA completely for blogging purposes but now I want to switch to Blogger completely.  Why can I make up my mind.  You might think it is a stupid dilemma but I guess I want to preserve my Xanga.  I was still members of certain blogrings that I joined in high school.  Heck, I was even an admin for a group - I Need Anger Management! I would have a group like that, especially in high school.  I guess, I need to a new space to grow and have a bit more mature blogs.  I should really switch to a physical journal.  Too bad I can't type fast enough.   Anyways, I'll think about it later.  I need to read for Edu 173 since I ditched class.

So I have decided to clog through text messaging and just wanted to make sure it works. I hope this keep me occupied when I'm waiting at the doctors office or if im in the car with the parents.

Blogging

Well, I have a problem with keeping up a blog. Last post was September 21, 2009! Well, I think I will go back to my Xanga but I do like this forum as well. But I am just so much more comfortable with Xanga, I've had it since 9th grade! So long ago! I need some personal growth because I still type the same way and feel the same way about certain situations which is ridiculous since it has been so many years! Anyways, I wanted to type an intelligent post but it looks I am not. So I shall put you guys out of your miseries and mine as well and end this post. =D
Have a great Sunday afternoon!