Friday, May 7, 2010

Senioritis

I have a major case of Senioritis.  All I do is sleep and eat.  Avoid writing my thesis.  Ditch Edu 173.  Go to the mall.  Avoid writing my plasma lab.  Life really sucks at the moment.  What happened to my motivation?  I have never been this lazy before! Even senior year of high school was not this unproductive.  Honestly, these days I feel like a robot.  I have a to-do list that needs to be accomplished but not conation (edu 173 is good for something) behind it.  I sometimes have the volition but I feel like the computer-model of the mind.  I use cognition but it is not affected by motivation or volition.  I'm a walking robot with no emotions.  It's almost as if I am numb from the world.  I can't feel my surroundings anymore.  I am seriously not trying to sound emo or dark or sad.  I just feel cut off.  Like I have no connection to the world.  Almost like I'm an outsider watching the world go by.  I don't know why.

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