From my Facebook note:
i had the weirdest freaking dream last night! my dad and i were trying to escape some organization trying to kill us. but they offered safety for my sis if she killed me. she had the option of knife or injection. so she decides to tell me that the org. wants to kill me. and i say just kill me because if you don't do it now they will keep on hunting me down. she then sticks the injection in my tongue and i slowly start dying. so that made me think about what i would want to do in my last few hours of living . . .
What would you do?
______________________________
To be completely honest (without the holes of my FB note), in my dream I was telling my dad and sister to tell everyone I love them and will miss them. But even as I am dying I kept thinking I want to tell him that I loved him. But even death cannot overcome my _________ (will? shame? stubborness?) to send him that message.
So it always comes back to him. Even as I am dying I am thinking I need to tell him. WHAT THE FUCK! yeah i said the f-word. I cannot believe I would think of that as I am fake-dying in my dream. I should be thinking about how I am dying alone or something. ugh.
This is a question for Allah: WHY DO I THINK OF HIM?! WHY? There has to be a reason why my mind always reverts back to him. I know he isn't the one. I know that. But why?!
i had the weirdest freaking dream last night! my dad and i were trying to escape some organization trying to kill us. but they offered safety for my sis if she killed me. she had the option of knife or injection. so she decides to tell me that the org. wants to kill me. and i say just kill me because if you don't do it now they will keep on hunting me down. she then sticks the injection in my tongue and i slowly start dying. so that made me think about what i would want to do in my last few hours of living . . .
What would you do?
______________________________
To be completely honest (without the holes of my FB note), in my dream I was telling my dad and sister to tell everyone I love them and will miss them. But even as I am dying I kept thinking I want to tell him that I loved him. But even death cannot overcome my _________ (will? shame? stubborness?) to send him that message.
So it always comes back to him. Even as I am dying I am thinking I need to tell him. WHAT THE FUCK! yeah i said the f-word. I cannot believe I would think of that as I am fake-dying in my dream. I should be thinking about how I am dying alone or something. ugh.
This is a question for Allah: WHY DO I THINK OF HIM?! WHY? There has to be a reason why my mind always reverts back to him. I know he isn't the one. I know that. But why?!
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